Amanda and I had a
long talk yesterday about my leadership in our family. It was rough but
well recieved. The fact of the matter is, I dont’ know how to lead a
family. Sure, I am great at the whole being a dad thing. I play with my
kids. Love on them. Do things dad is supposed to do. But when it comes
to being a hubby, I am not that good at it.
Don’t get me wrong,
I love my wife tremendously. I just don’t know how to lead her. Part of
this stems from my seemingly inability to make decisions. I could stand
20 minutes in a store trying to pick out what candy I want. I hate it
and I don’t know how to change it.
At the same time, I am
usually a leader type in small groups. Almost every project I have been
involved in my collegiate years, I assumed the role of leader. Why is
that I struggle with this at home? I think another part of the problem
is that I never had a father figure. I was raised by druggies and
alcoholics. There was no leadership in my family and it was always
Something to think about.